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Ignored
Why does she ignore me,
Why does she ignore my call?
Why does she ignore me,
Why has she become a wall?
I
went to her house the other day,
but she had nothing to say.
I talked to her at school,
but she ignored me - like
I'm not cool.
Why does she ignore me,
Why does she not talk to me?
Why does she ignore me,
How can
I just make her see?
I gave her a gift to celebrate
the anniversary of our first date,
but she just sighed
and walked away.
I saw her friend wearing it today!
I'm talking to her on the phone,
but she's just
snoring!
AM I THAT DAMN BORING!?
Why does she ignore me,
Why does she ignore my call?
Why does she
ignore me,
Why has she become a wall?
Why does she ignore me,
Why does she not talk to me?
Why does she ignore
me,
How can I just make her see?
The Beach
(religious in nature..., but it belongs in this category)
I'm so glad the Lord brought you into my life
He's blessed me over and over
You're the person I've always dreamed
of...
He's blessed me over and over
If you could only realize the depth of my love
We've come together
under His guide...
We gaze in awe
at His power...
His work is perfect
I can now admit..., my
world has become you
He's blessed me over and over
My life is lesser without you by my side...
He's blessed me
over and over
The beach..., a representation of our stride
We've come together
known His love...
We
see the beauty
of this creation...
His work is perfect
It's our time, and my love is undying...
He's
blessed me over and over
Please keep close..., in these troubled days
He's blessed me over and over
The beach
awaits..., will we be always?
Longing for Love
I can feel it there
deep inside
A gaping hole which
I cannot hide
What is this want?
Where is it
from?
I feel a need...
Why do I long?
I'm longing for love
I'm needing it bad
I'm longing
for love
the kind that we had
Why did you leave?
I haven't a clue
But now that you're back
I want only
you
Now that we are
back together
My hole has gone
away forever
What was this want?
Where
was it from?
I feel a need...
Why do I long?
I'm longing for love
I'm needing it bad
I'm
longing for love
the kind that we had
Why did you leave?
I haven't a clue
But now that you're back
I want
only you
Only you... my love
Waiting for Her
that lonely stupid feeling again
I don't know where you've been
been searching for so long
I thought I'd write
a song
about how I've been alone
waiting by the phone
wandering through the world
searching for that girl
so lonely
so tired
so long
wish I could find that girl
I wish she'd come to me
if only it could
be
I wish she'd run to me
so I could say...
I wanna be with you
she turns around and walks away
just
when I thought she'd stay
I'm sick of all this pain
but I'd do it all again
for just one smile from that face
the one I can't erase
I can't wait for another chance
to ask her to the dance
so distant
so silent
so secure
wish I could be with her
I wish she'd walk to me
if only it could be
I wish she'd talk to me
so I could say...
I wanna be with you
I've been lonely like you
searching for the truth
I've
been desperate like you
the stupidity of youth
Love Lost
It's been so long now
Since the last time we met
I can still remember your smile
But in this long while
You've gone far away
It's like a million miles
People change
That's the way of life
You changed too, over the years
And now I fear
That I won't love you
When you are finally here
Now that I look back
I miss those times we had
I wish we didn't have to part
And now I'm left lonely
Regret is all that's left
Filling every inch of my heart
I miss you
More than I knew before
I hope one day we'll be happy
Together again
The Hopeless Romantic
I can't stop myself from thinking about your face
Because every night I sit alone and miss your embrace
Maybe it's all I can do to keep myself sane
The puddles collect and pour off the falling rain
I can't seem to hear the drops, only your voice
Soothing my heart before making my choice
I don't want to hurt you or lose your company
Because it's given purpose and value to the symphony
Which plays constantly in my soul, but never heard
So, now I'll think of all the actions, all the words
That I need to say in order to tell you, "I love you"
But there still remains the dread of what you may do
Unattainable
I guess I'm left here now, all alone again...
Afraid that this may be my life story
No tales of love or romantic glory
Just a simple tomb for those who never win
It's funny that I only remember what's promised
When it's too late to keep it anymore
So I end up falling again... What for?
The unattainable girl that I shouldn't have risked
The love that I have will remain forever
But sadly it can not be requited
For reasons I have above cited
I should not hope that she will love me ever
Yet, I can't stop the hope from sleeping
I have no control over it now
It seems I have forgotten how
To keep it hidden in my box's keeping
I'll propel myself onward in this horrid race
That hope driving me ever fast
Though I will finish last
Because nice guys never keep the pace
And when I'll look back on this day
I'll remember how love failed
That this ship never sailed
Yet it's memories gently float away
The ballad of the hopeless romantic plays on
Giving a dreary farewell to the waves
As hope remains, and myself saves
Never to know what may have begun
I bid thee farewell my lovely dream
Until I see you again
My most unfavored friend
Maybe one day you will finally be seen
The Futility of My Feelings
(for Jen)
Don't leave me out in the rain
I feel so sullen and tired of pain
It hurts me more than you could know
I long for your company, because it makes me whole
So, I'll strive for you, evermore
I'll live and die for you, though you'll shut the door
and when the final day arrives I'll fall
at your feet; for your love I'll crawl
I can't describe how you make me feel
because it's like nothing that is real
Being with you brings me to a higher plane
The longer I'm without you... I go insane
The knight in shining armor rides ever near
Coming to trample me out of your life, I fear...
And, as I lie bludgeoned and dying, I'll reach for you
then watch as you ride away without a clue
My only love will be taken from me
I'll be alone, defeated, for all eternity
and there's nothing I can do or say...
Nothing that will make her stay
I'll die to myself for her happiness
and look the other way, never to confess
the feelings which I hold deep inside
My heart, from her, I must forever hide
It continually eats me from within
Gouging away at my soul like some horrible sin
I speak, yet never saying what needs to be said
because I've already lost... I'm already dead
She would never give up her white knight
I'm running headlong into a futile fight
She could never care for this lump of imperfection
Downtrodden I'll remain... never to know her affection
Again comes that which I most hate
Hope will make me doubt my fate
What if I had a chance and gave it all away?
Maybe I had not said everything I could say...
She walks in and out of my sight
Every time, kindling my inner light
I wish I could destroy these feelings, my curse,
but she lives in my heart... though I am not in hers
Six Years Later
Does she remember me
because it's been so long
now since I've seen her
We agreed to take it easy
because we weren't
ready to be more mature
Now it's been four
years since I last
actually talked to her
Six since the promise
but does she still feel the same or
things could be different for sure
A Graceful Blush
With all my heart, I wish
there's something more I could do.
But this is the end you must face
alone
before I can be there with you.
There should be words in my mouth
that will comfort you,
but they've run away. So,
instead
a simple hug will have to do.
A single tear falls but slightly
down your cheek, like an orb of sadness
in a garden of roses. Again, I'm reminded why
I love you.
Reaching up, I wipe away your regrets as
I run my hand across the roses.
There are no thorns, but if there were
I'd still bleed for you.
An ecstacy of hot-faced hugging and
understanding still isn't enough
to let you know how I feel. Still,
the speechless one is me.
Patience is a virtue I wish I didn't
have to keep. It's difficult
not to be able to let you know that
you're so beautiful to me.
Practice
It's warm here next to you
and I'm surprised my heart beats
so slow
as I wish time would go.
It seems these affections have
grown
since only a month ago.
I'm watching you sleep
and wondering if you're dreaming
of me,
as if I may see
the thoughts played out on
your face
when in your dreams I could be.
Under a near-full moon,
a nervous kiss is sneaked before
I leave.
It's better than I could believe,
but next time don't let my
nerves
make it so wrong or so brief.
Echoes of What May Have Been
Like a wolf in sheep's clothing
this dagger smiles as I'm crying;
calling to me sweetly with lips of crimson
and promises of what should have been.
Stab me again, please. I don't mind.
Your beautiful shine may be a sign
of things to come as I go out alone
to face the slings and arrows on my own.
As I look above, all I see is blue
fading to shades of greyish hue
and I keep my mouth wide, gaping
like a wound of your shaping.
Refreshing as it may be, the rain
brings me also the pain again
as it's seeping into my shoes.
I'm weeping for you.
If only you knew I was still here
maybe there would be nothing to fear,
but I would not wish that on you, my dear.
At least the rain will hide my lonely tears.
Another Day
Day in and day out begins the cycle
anew, and I pray for any sort of miracle
to save me from the monotony of living,
but it seems lately God is not so giving.
It's quite impossible to hide the
loneliness I feel without you by my side,
yet these lost emotions scream for
another outlet than yours.
Our days together are few and
far in-between; now the shifting sands
of time are ready to take you from me
to a faraway place among the trees.
It seems we shall be moving apart
and another soon will steal my heart,
but I'd just like to let you know
that I still love you more than I could show.
Crush and Yearn
Those faded codes and signals punch
into the core, though I couldn't feel them any less,
but your words are triggering
reactions
I never expected before- making me a mess.
Though I don't know if I come or go,
I slowly grow toward you more every day,
leaving me blinded by the emotion as
I
find my mind wandering farther away.
Love's sweet intoxication takes hold
of my shoulder; leading me onward,
toward some destination unknown.
I want
to run away like a coward,
but this simple feeling has got me now,
and I don't know how to shake free.
All I can do is wait and see,
and
maybe one day you'll crush on me.
Lost in Time
In these quiet times
I wonder whether the past
was something better than now,
or if we're riding a wave ready
to fall.
I continue to listen
to every moment while trying
to reign over my calloused heart,
but all I'm losing is me.
I wander in the depths
and find not what I crave,
only to leave myself behind
while digging a shallow grave.
This minute drop on the pond
crashes through all I knew
leaving me crawling at the bottom
where I finally found
you.
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Without my muse I have
nothing to give or receive
which holds any value.
Silence...
Unfold
I miss you
though you were never there.
And forever
though I may wait... I don't care.
As long as
I see
you again I'll be ok.
Maybe I can
say everything I meant to say.
Though I only
want a hug (or kiss?)
to let
me know
you're feeling this.
This isn't for the girl you're thinking about.
No, this is completely new... but
old.
These are words I need to let out,
because she was never told
how much I love her.
I was too busy with another.
The End of This
Sleepless nights and waking breaths
don't bring your face - don't bring no less
but when I hear those angels screaming
you'll
fall to me to ease my breathing
I die more with each passing minute
and watch the world but I'm not in it
and
though I may know whats inside
my devil's come to take a ride
Before I knew this train had started
and now I
stand here brokenhearted
I do not know where we will go
I can not take this any more
The curtain falls and I'm
behind
the curtain makes the soul unwind
and I remain to hear again
your footsteps signalling the end
Fading
out we end with this
The taste of bittersweet last kiss
Forever see your parting glance
Forever wish for one last
chance
This is the end of this
with one final kiss
you'll take me away
far away
Monument
Alone again...
the only way I've been
for so long. You've
left me on my own.
Some friend...
You cast aside
our
time for fleeting love.
How should I survive?
And now I hope that you'll remember me
for years after I drown
beneath this sea
of tears shed for a fading memory...
You've put an end to me.
Like blood drips down the wall,
I
leave a stain where I fall,
and when you see me on the news
you'll know I did this just for you.
A broken, bleeding
monument
upon a littered city street.
My soul flies far away from
this heap of worthless meat.
I'll see you burn
eternally
for what you did to me...
My Gift to You
The void inside my being
is swallowing me
whole-heartedly
and I'm taking you with me.
Forever we'll
be
as we were always meant to be...
Together eternally...
and I'm giving all of me.
I've lost myself
and
you can find me if you please.
I'm waiting to hear your story
of broken hearts and shattered dreams.
A final
wish
upon a falling star..
to save this memory
and make it a part of me.
A final price
to pay for all I
am
and all I'll ever be.
A tortured soul set free...
As long as you're happy...
Home
Tonight this heart beats for you
Blood charging through my veins
And I can't believe this
Feeling is everlasting
Empty words and voices
Will never touch me deeper...
If only I could heal your pain
As much as you've killed mine
For every tear that's shed
Brings us closer to heart
Ache and pain of longing
For things so far away
Tomorrow is another day
To want what awaits in
Dreams so easily forgotten
But living forever for you
Just one chance to see you smile
And the world wouldn't matter
Hand in hand
We'll lead each other home again
Someday
Unspoken Words
"The promise of someday
doesn't seem to be enough anymore,
but believe me...I'm trying...
Trying so hard"
I love you more than words can say.
To torture myself every day
would be a welcome release
from the agony of my heartache.
"Patience...something I never had much of...,
but there's nothing else we can do right now."
An eternity within every moment without you...
"I love hearing your voice."
...and only yours gives me strength.
(but as much as I try
to fill this void
with intangible love
it will never feel the same)
"I love you."
I would never ask for anything more.
Of Love and Heartache
I'm lost somewhere in-between
What is real and what is dream
These nights seem longer with time
Endless searching for your...
State of mind
Your love I long to find
This feeling so divine
In your state of mind
Confused, I'll just lay to rest
these thoughts I may second guess
Your gentle smile seems so kind
Will I ever know your...
State of mind
Your love I long to find
This feeling so divine
In your state of mind
Vous avez mon coeur
et vous êtes mon inspirateur
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